That's me... Just a mama with her two year old toddler, Mid melt down at the Los Angles Zoo. Just trying to enjoy my day with my child. Well anymore it is very rare we can go on outings without a melt down...
I have been reading so many articles on families and their "Spirited" children lately, Because well my child. No words sometimes. Call it whatever you want but my son is just a down right terror sometimes. There is no sugar coating it. He is spoiled rotten. Partly the parenting and partly well it is just who he is. He knows what he wants. He's so smart and so kind, But he has many of those fun fits. Most of the time in public. One little thing can set him off. Dropping a toy. Finishing his juice. If I take his shoes off. MELTDOWN. So much dramatics happening, He hosts and acts out his own broadway musical. I say musical because of the whining and the screaming. He will throw himself to the ground and dramatically whine and cry until I pay attention. Like seriously will NOT stop. If I walk away he will follow me, in midst of crying and drooling all over the floor like a dog. Talking calmly, Nothing. He can't hear me over his playlist. Time out. Are you kidding me? Just recently that is becoming a hit or miss...
Where the hell do these little beings learn how squall and shed tears like they've won a handful of Golden Globe awards..?! I look at my son as he is rehearsing and I am just baffled. I try and stay calm and more than half the time just laugh and think to myself that I need to continue sending out his contact sheets to more agencies.
There are days where I feel as if I will rip my hair out. There are days where I do have my own meltdown and cry to my self with stress and anxiety. Some days it's relieving once bed time hits. But some days after he's in bed I miss him. You can't win!
Parenting obviously isn't what I totally anticipated it to be. I AM one of those parents who claimed a few of those " MY KID WONT DO THIS!" Serves me right, I think most parents feel similar. It's very difficult to not constantly stress about those around you and how they might be judging you as a parent, in the outside world and beyond your home. Then more often it is frustrating that most individuals do not comprehend that everyones situation is unique. The eye rolls and sarcastic comments are more than enough folks..
Because I have a wild one, I am defiantly guilty of the "Here watch YouTube on the iPad so I can eat in peace. Let's go get McDonald's, because I'm too fucking tired to cook from you keeping me up all night. Hey let's go to ToysR'Us AGAIN, Because I love spoiling the shit out of you.
I know there are pros and cons to it all. But no one can parent perfectly it's impossible. Everyone's situation is different. For instance, My husband travels for work often. So it is myself with my monster. Topping it off we live in a huge congested city away from any family. We have OCD and quirks that are clearly passed on to our child. But we are more than getting by. With only half justification in my writing to make me feel better but still. I love the hell out of this kid. Wild and all, He is one of the best things that ever happened to me. Cliches and all I wouldn't change it for the world. Because even though he's sour at times, He's sweet too.