Back in CA. I've said it many times, How I could care less to live here in California. But at the same time I do appreciate the weather. (sometimes) It is a little warmer since moving outside of LA. But at least it cools off here in the evenings and the temps don't reach to a boiling 120 Degrees. This morning I was able to have my patio door open while I fed Blake breakfast. In Arizona you walk outside in the morning and it's like you opened an oven door. F that. My heart often aches for my family. It saddens me knowing they won't be present for many of Blake's experiences. But my husbands work is mainly here and honestly I've never cared living in the heat. It just doesn't appeal to me. I know that the weather isn't like that all year long but it still isn't worth it to me. We're unfortunately in a frustrating spot, Not knowing where we belong or fit in. It is probably more me being frustrated with our living situation than my husband. Because at the same time I could care less to stay here as well. I feel so misplaced. I only have less than a handful of friends here. I just found out one of them is moving, Which depresses me. Making friends out here is a joke. Not only that but being an adult and adding a child into the mix makes it only that much more difficult to me. I am a tad bit dramatic. But I just have a hard time connecting with other women or mom friends because I guess its just me. I am odd.. No one understands my sense of humor. I am way older than my age. But a kid at the same time.. I guess I shouldn't let it get to me too much. In the end my boys are what matters most.
Overall our trip was kind of a blur. I was looking forward to having a break and family wanting to take Blake out of my arms anytime they had a chance. Dare to dream. Forgetting everyone has their lives and schedules dialed in as I come into disrupt it. My mother had to have surgery on her hand and arm. So she wasn't able to pick Blake up much. Papa and Aunties all have Monday-Friday jobs. The following week in AZ, Grandma was in the hospital nearly a week. Thankfully she is well now. I was able to leave Blake with her one morning so I could go see " Finding Dory".(Totally recommend seeing it. I LOVED it. So cute.) But it was enjoyable to see family and a few friends. Especially while the husband was away for work. Though I didn't get to cross everyone off my list to see. I feel like a real asshole for not visiting those whom I've said numerous times I would come visit. (Apologies, I suck) But after the 7 hour drive in the heat to AZ. I just wanted to stay put where I was and everyone come see me if they want. Blake was not having it in the car seat. And with the car pre heating like an oven to a thousand degrees, Putting him in the hot carseat just wasn't appealing. I've also learned that on top of being a bit theatrical ( How could you blame me? The heat makes you a crazy person..) I'm pretty sure I am allergic to the heat. Every time I travel during the summer to Arizona. It never fails I get horrid migraines. Which of course occurred on the way home. So nauseated. Holding down vomit. Feeling like a horrible mother, not being able to tend to my child whom as bored out of his mind sitting in the car seat for hours...
Relieved to be home. Where all my possessions are. All of Blake's goods scattered throughout the house. Having to pack for a child is a pain. I pack more for him than I do myself. This past couple weeks have flown by. Contemplating all the time I was going to have just went by so faster than I anticipated.. We are home bound till possibly christmas. I could care less for Thanksgiving. So If anyone would like to visit let me know!
So my little minion is 9 months old. I didn't get around to posting a photo. But man has he learned so many things. So many accomplishments happening so quickly and one right after another. I missed his 9 month check up, I will be rescheduling that this coming week. I am pretty sure he weighs about 22 pounds. I stood on a scale with him and did the math. Blake has learned how to give kisses or how he gives kisses is opening his mouth and putting his face on yours. Though in the morning he is always in such a great mood he kisses my arm or leg. The dogs. He is just too damn cute. My mom taught him how to dance. Well to " Shake it" and he wiggles around. When we wave bye he opens and closes his fist. So thats a new accomplishment in progress. One evening I was feeding Blake dinner and a basket ball game was on and Blake turns to me and puts both arms out like he scored. So every time we say " YAY Blake!!" He throws his arms up. He is also doing it overtime he eats. It is pretty funny to watch. Pulling him self up is easy peasy. He is gliding around furniture pretty easy. Crawls like a crazy person everywhere throughout the house. Just finally getting some baby gates this week. I don't know why we have delayed it this long.. Oh and how could I forget he has 5 teeth now. The 6th on top will be coming soon.
Well the Fourth of July is coming up.. Another holiday I could care less about. It honestly angers me more than anything. It was annoying before having a child, The dogs act pathetic with the loud booms. People are blowing shit up right now as I type, Late in the evening too! ( Don't wake my kid..) I just find the fireworks to be loud and annoying. Also ignorant considering all the wildfires that are happening. Hello fire hazard. No plans probably just staying in to comfort my animals. Hopefully dad will be home by then to help.
Until next week.
New snapshots from my mini fuji will be uploaded in Snapshot section, And more reviews to come.